Bittersweet feeling of being at home and missing this island at the same time. 🌀
|03.02.14 @ 13:57||1 note||Permalink|
Stop the bitterness. Stop the hate. Stop blaming other people (and the entire universe) for all the wrong things that’s happened/happening around you. Stop being a lazy ass. Stop flaking out. Stop reasoning out. Stop spreading negative vibes. Stop the negative thoughts.
Things will be so much easier and happier (mostly, not always) when you’re on the positive side of life.
Go try it.
Written some time in January 2014. Kept in Drafts Folder ‘til February 15, 2014.
Here it goes:
I keep thinking about you and what we could be.
But why? I don’t even like-like you to begin with. You’re exactly the opposite of what i want in a partner. You talk dumb. You’re out of tune when you sing. You wear the same set of dri-fit shirts over and over again everytime you travel. You seem immature to me. And don’t get me started with how poor your grammar is and how jeje you type when you reply to Facebook comments and msgs.
And still, i can’t deny the fact i’ve been thinking about you since the holidays up to this very moment, as i type these words on my iPhone. Because i know they say you’re very sweet and caring and is someone who can be depended on. You’re smart. You’ve got the travel bug like i do. When we were together last 2012, you opened up to me and i learned how passionate you are and i think that is the one thing that i liked most about you.
But then again, you’re still the opposite of what i want.
I used to like someone then (2007-2013) but “we” never really happened. Thus, i was bitter every Valentine’s Day because i was srsly rooting for him for me for the longest time haha.
Now, i no longer root for him. I don’t have my eyes on anybody —at least not srsly. (Why yes, yes it is possible to not like someone) Thus, i’m not bitter about Valentine’s Day this year hehe. Easy peasy.
Oh, can i just say (like i always do every Vday) that February 14 marks my worklife anniversary? Working girl for 3 years now, and still no savings hehe. I don’t mind, as long as i get to travel!Speaking of travel, i want to explore Surigao so badly!!!!! :(
Hi, it’s been a long time since we’ve talked. Actually, scratch that —it’s been a looong time since you’ve talked to anyone of us. It’s such a dick move, really. I remember you mentioned “un-friending” your blockmates (along with your best pals) because you think “their jokes are too much for your girlfriend to handle.” What an ass, considering they are not bad friends, and you know that very well. What i didn’t see coming was that i, myself was included in your list of People-I-Must-Unfriend-ASAP. How could you? You know how far our friendship has come. I was the person who came in between you and your ex-girlfriend-ish to help patch things up. You were the person i confide to about almost everything back in college and even after. Again, i ask, how could you?
Moving forward, i hope you’ll never ever need my help again. If i receive a text message from you asking for my advice, i’ll delete your message without hesitation. And i swear, if i ever run into you, i’ll pretend i don’t know you and i’ll walk past you.
Okay, so maybe this is me overreacting. Maybe you cutting me off your life is a bit overdue. Maybe you’re right about this. Maybe you’re wrong. But one thing is for sure: you became the asshole friend i thought you’d never be.
With bitterness and hate,
Yesterday, i received a text message from a friend, asking what happened to our high school batch mate because of the sad posts she saw on her Facebook feeds. So i immediately checked Facebook and there i saw and confirmed that our batch mate was one of the 14 casualties from the Mt. Province bus accident. What happened to her was sad and tragic, but most of all, sudden. Because she was young and she had her whole life way ahead of her. She lived life to the fullest, was never afraid to do things and tell crazy stories. Ours was not the close-friends-kind-of-friendship, but back in college, we lived near each other’s place so we hung out a few nights together with our other batch mates.
With this recent tragedy, a few other thoughts and questions crossed my mind:
For me, if i die young while i’m on a travel and thrill-seeking adventure, i think i would actually be okay. Because i know i died doing what i love.
(I was initially planning to list down details as to how i’d want my funeral to be if i die young, but i couldn’t do it. Clearly, i’m not ready. So i’m ending my post right here)
I know you think you know everything, but in case you haven’t realized this:
They are not your slaves. Stop treating them badly. Quit acting like you’re some kind of a god and get your head out of your bum, you spoiled brat you.
Ps. On another note, I just realized we’re on the opposite end of the spectrum. I’m very hard on myself while you’re so full of yourself. I doubt almost everything that i do while you can’t accept criticisms, period. So yeah, maybe we’re both doomed like that.
Currently experiencing drought in my brain. So dry, you could almost see a tumbleweed rolling across south. Creative juices, where art thou? :(
Help me out, please? I have so many things i want/have to do and so many goals i want to accomplish this year —personally and professionally —but i just don’t know where to start.
May you never let me lose sight of my vision and keep my passion burning. I can feel it. This is going to be my year, i swear, it will be. You know what they say about people who are unfortunate with their romantic lives are bound to be very lucky with their career? Well guess what, i can feel that i’ll be lucky on both aspects this 2014!
Ha-ha. There, i’ve said it. :p
Well, the thing is, i tend to lose sight of everything. Then i have to start all over again. And to be honest, I need all the inspirational elements around me now more than ever to keep me motivated into achieving my goals.
So help me, universe.