Super random post
“I watch you spin around in your highest heels, you are the best one of the best ones.”
I fell in love with the song all over again. This is the sweetest!
Random
It makes me sad that i am not able to update my blog as often as i want to :( Truth be told, i feel like i don’t even have time for myself. I haven’t watched any movies lately. I haven’t shoot lomo in awhile. I haven’t had time to go to the salon and get my curls done (well, okay i did go to a salon last week to get a haircut, but they murdered my hair…so now i have to live my life one day at a time with this horrible bangs and cut hoping that it will grow faster!!!) I haven’t even finished my Big Bang Theory marathon. I haven’t finished reading a book either :(
I don’t know. I just feel like there are so many things to do, yet so little time. I don’t know how long i can juggle all these things until i get tired…
On the positive side, i do feel like being tired is better than being bored. At least i know that i am being productive and that i am doing something worthwhile. So yeah, even though i may rant (mostly on Twitter) every now and then, know that i am enjoying what i do at the moment, and that’s the most important thing, right? :)
Aaaaand for this week, i can’t even grasp the idea on the amount of stress i will have to bear with and whether or now i will crack, haha. Fast forward to Friday please!!! :p
Sober thoughts.
That i always tend to keep my feelings all to myself because i have a difficulty in opening up and letting people in to my life.
That even if i find the courage to show my emotions, those feelings will remain unnoticed anyway.
That i will always care too much about everyone and everything.
That everyone else will never care enough about me.
That i am often taken for granted.
That i will always choose you but i will never even be in one of your options.
That there will always be a soft spot in me, for you.
That i will always try and find solutions to all of my friends’ problems, but can never, ever figure out how to solve my own.
That i spend every second of my life trying to prove something to the world.
That the world does not even seem to acknowledge my effort.
That i can’t live life to its fullest because of my undying fears.
That i always worry about what everyone thinks of me.
That i will always fear the idea of not being good enough.
That i will spend the rest of my days trying to find the path that is meant for me, the person who i am meant to be, and the person who is right for me.
(That i tend to over-think when i’m bored or sad or is simply still up at midnight.)
Now, can you just imagine my thoughts when i’m drunk?
Man up!
Your friends will be there for you through thick and thin, yes. They will be there for you to: listen while you pour your heart out, chug beer bottles with you, give you random tight squishy hugs, scream out with you, and do whatever silly things you need to do just to help you make it through the day. But let’s face it, at the end of the day, it is still every man for himself, because just like you, your friends have their own problems to face and stories to write themselves.
Come to think of it, friends may be the best shield for your problems, yes… but really, it’s just you, and you alone can truly resolve all your issues. It’s your battle, and only you have the power to decide if you’re gonna let it get the best of you or choose to conquer it.
It’s every man for himself, so you better learn how to man up!
Magkalinawan lang, ha.
Ayoko sa lahat, yung feeling na natatalo ako.
Ay teka… naglalaro pa ba?
Now playing…
Nobody’s gonna come and save you. We pulled too many false alarms.
My dear, we’re slow dancing in a burning room.
Don’t you think we oughta know by now?
Don’t you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Daddy’s girl
- I just got off the phone with my dad
- And i just learned that he’s not coming home til the end of the month
- Oh, won’t somebody please wake me up when September ends? :(
- Anyway, i talked to him
- Well, i cried while i was talking to him
- Because i can really feel his support
- And he told me he doesn’t want me to feel whatever it is that i’m feeling now
- And he doesn’t want me to go through whatever it is that i am going through right now
- He and my mom always know the right things to say
- I mean, really
- They are very supportive of me
- Thank God for my parents
- Oh god, oh god, i can’t stop my tears :(
- Then my dad told me to book a trip already, at least for him, my mom, bro and me
- So we could all relax and somehow forget our worries and problems
- Gaaaaah i swear, i love him
- And God knows how much i miss him right now
Random strange thoughts
- Tangina naho-homesick ako :(
- Which is actually weird because i don’t normally get this kind of feeling
- But yes, i miss my family right now
- I don’t have plans for my birthday
- I’m not excited about my birthday
- Hell, i don’t even care about my birthday
- I just want my dad to come home a-s-a-p
- The thought of him coming home next week is what i really look forward to
- I need him, i need his wise words
- I miss him
- I wanna go somewhere far
- I wanna take a time-off from everything to think of uhm, well, everything
- I don’t know where my life is heading right now
- I have no idea what i’m doing
- I guess i need a break from all of this
- But i can’t really take a break from this life… can i?
- Ughhh i think i’m losing it!
- September has always been my favorite and lucky month
- But why am i starting the month with these random emo-shit stuff?
- Please be awesome, lucky month!
- It’s never too late.
- I mean, it’s only the 5th of the month
- Gimme good news
- Gimme good vibes
- Gimme positive changes
- I need my #septemberwish now more than ever!
Random changes
- So much changes for just one weekend.
- I changed my number (for good) because i got a postpaid plan with Globe.
- And can you believe this, i almost spent 550pesos all because my initial request for my supposedly-mobile number wasn’t granted.
- I almost got into a heated argument yesterday with an account executive.
- It wasn’t her fault, but they should fix their system anyway.
- I changed my phone (but i’m still keeping my Xperia X1).
- I got the cheapest BlackBerry unit available, all because i don’t have enough money in my savings.
- My brother got an iPhone 4, because he has more money than me. Pbbbhht!
- I bid goodbye to my curls this afternoon. :(
- I have this weird attachment issue with my hair.
- I looked at the mirror 5 minutes ago, and i can’t seem to recognize the face i saw.
- I’ve had those curls for almost a year now.
- Oh well, who knows… i might bring it back next month, out of nothing but an absolutely impulsive decision. Haha.
- I cut my bangs short.
- I am starting to make a move, in all ways possible!
- But i can’t state it here on Tumblr.
- Let’s keep it private.
- But man oh man, i wanna continue doing this.
- I dare myself to moooove! ;)
And it really makes me wonder if i ever gave a fck about you.
I’ve been here before
One day I’ll wake up
And it won’t hurt anymore
