I don’t know what is up with this day, but i think i just discussed how happy i am right now with my work about four times today. Weird.

And i am thinking of using this fact as the reason why i rarely post random thoughts in my blog, or why i don’t post lomo photos now… or why i don’t even have the time to shoot one. It’s because i am busy… busy but in a good way. And just like what i told our director today, i think being busy and tired is better than being bored.

So yes, i’m good. I am where i am meant to be.

Everything’s good here, for now, at least. :)

When you’re caught in the battle of choosing between what you want to do and what you should do, whereto?

What you want to do

• Pros: you’re happy
• Cons: it doesn’t pay well, nobody understands why you want to do it

What you should do

• Pros: it pays well, everyone around you seems impressed with what you do
• Cons: it’s tiring, you’re not happy

I just wish that people wouldn’t be so judgmental about what others do for a living, who they go out with, where they hang out, etc., you know? Then again, i wish that i could just stop caring about what others think of me. Dammit! What a fcked up world we live in. (I can’t wait ‘til i move to Mars!)

But if i were to ask you, which one would you choose, what you want/love to do or what you know you should do?

• Exactly one year ago, we were on Black and Blue Store in Dubai, looking for a 10-Dirham worth of gift for our Kris Kringle, haha.
• That was a fun day.
• My favorite Christmas song right now has got to be Train’s Shake Up Christmas.
• I really really like the song. And the official music video, of course!
• I mean, what’s not to love? Santa has the crystal ball! Lol.
• One of the saddest Christmas songs, i’d have to say, is It’s Christmas (All Over The World).
• I don’t know, but i feel sad whenever i hear it on the radio.
• I don’t feel like sending out SMS to all my contacts.
• I feel lazy.
• Or maybe i am just being a Grinch.
• But whatever. Let’s see if i change my mind before midnight.
• Merry Christmas to my followers, and the people that i follow as well.
• You guys are awesome.
• Tumble is awesome.
• I have to go and prepare for the Christmas Eve mass. 
• Gotta thank God for all the blessings i got throughout the year.
• Go on guys, have yourself a merry little christmas. :)

Some of the songs that i listen to whenever i feel sad:

• Fix You by Coldplay
• Here Comes The Sun by The Beatles
• Young Forever by Jay Z
• Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
• Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer

“It’s not you, it’s me.”

So the break-up cliche is true, and all the while, i though it was just plain BS. Haha! But really, it’s not you… the problem is me, it’s all me. Waaah!

As much as i want to stay, i feel like i need to do this for myself. I am not looking for something else, or something more. Truth be told, i don’t know what i am looking for, and i think that this is the best thing for me to do: to try and figure out what is in-store for me. I’ve been stuck in this phase for God knows how long, and i figured, now is right time to face these long-unanswered questions that keep haunting me every day (and night).

And just like what Steve Jobs said during his commencement speech at Stanford University, “You’ve got to find what you love. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.” So yeah, that’s exactly what i will do. I don’t know how i’ll do it, or where to look for it, but all i know is that i’ll do whatever ‘til i seek where my heart belongs. I know it’s going to be difficult for me (you know, it’s hard to look for something when you don’t even know what you’re looking for in the first place), and i’ve thought about the consequences that may/will arise, but it’s all going to be worth it. It should be worth it, and it will be. I know it.

One down, a thousand more decisions to go.

I’d like to believe that i’ll be alright…

Yes, i’ll be fine.

• Okay, i just got home
• And i am sooo happy :D
• Really, if you could just see me right now while i’m typing this out… HAHA
• I got my film-to-CD package
• For this one, i did the sprocket-lomography experiment
• And yeah boy, it works!
• K, i bring back everything i said last night
• I love DigiPrint talaga :)
• I even sent them an email last night, ‘cos i was really worried about my film
• And they answered me immediately this morning
• And boom, i got the package na :)
• Anyhoo, going back to the sprocket lomography…
• It was soooo cool!
• The result was a bit yellow and green-based
• But i don’t mind. That was just an experiment
• I’m thinking of buying more 35mm films now, rather than 120mm
• You know, just for fun
• :D
• And i learned that my brother is back!
• And since he and his girlfriend are celebrating their monthsary (gaaah! can you believe it? meron pa palang nagcecelebrate ng monthsary, psshhh haha), they’ll be having pizza later
• Which means, i’ll be having pizza too!
• And since i am super kapalmuks, i requested for some Charlie Chan pasta! Haha :D
• Yeah men!!! Just last night, i was tweeting this eh. Check it: http://twitter.com/#!/cherrysuarez/status/120864340168540160 :p
• Anyway, this was a lovely day.
• Again, is it graduation goggles, or what?
• Mmmm
• I’m thinking… everyone, please give me until Monday to sort my life out. I know i owe a lot of people decisions and answers but, just give me until next week to think.
• Anyway
• Great day…
• Great day :)